How I Deal With Harassment, Abuse, and Crazies In General.
A survival guide for the scared creator in the Internet Age.
"People are a problem." - Douglas Adams
I’ve received many requests for advice from young creators. Some of these questions regard advice on how to deal with being harassed online. Sometimes, these requests come from people actually experiencing harassment. I get nervous about talking about this. It tends to draw firestorms.
Also, it is an issue that affects other individuals WAYYYYY more than it affects me, and I don't want to be a callous buttinski around other peoples' troubles.
But I do get asked. And I do want to respond. I don't think young developers should value my feedback, yet they do. They certainly deserve to get fair warning about what awaits them. So.
This is how I, me personally, handle the threat of online harassment. Your mileage may vary. No, it WILL vary.
I Am a Public Figure
When I release a game or write something visible to the whole world, even a tiny something (Warning: Twitter counts!), I am acting as a public figure. A teeny tiny one, but a public figure nonetheless. Public figures have always received hate mail, abuse, threats, and messages from the unhinged, and they always will. Alas, the internet makes hostility much easier to deliver.
If you are a public figure, you will be abused eventually. Maybe mild insults. Maybe much worse. This abuse can spread to those around you. (Employers. Loved ones.) You should start thinking about this (and your tolerance for it) now.
This means that, unless something changes very drastically, from Day 1 of your life as a public figure, you should be thinking about your public image and how you will manage it. What is your mental resilience? How much abuse can you take?
1. Harassment is real, and it has a real effect.
Being harassed is harmful. It's easy to say, "Just toughen up. Walk away from the screen." until you've actually experienced it.
Humans are tribal creatures, and tons of insults are upsetting to us on a deep lizard-brain level. Anonymous threats are terrifying, even if they aren't credible. Organized swarms of bad Steam/iTunes reviews can sink a vulnerable business. Organized swarms of angry people can cost you your job. And getting swatted (someone giving an anonymous call to your local emergency services to get a SWAT team sent to your house) might kill you.
By the way, these days, they don’t just come after you. Your family and loved ones will be considered targets as well. You may be capable of ignoring being called every dirty word in the book. But is your mom?
So complaining about harassment isn't just whining by sheltered nerds. The more visible and outspoken you are online, the higher the chance that a whirlwind will land on the heads of you and those you love. There is no chance of this changing in the foreseeable future. This is serious business. I am scared. Everything I do online is weighed against the risk of harassment.
Actually, that's another good reason why I haven't written about it. I don't want to be yet another sheep, bleating loudly in the middle of wolf-infested woods.
2. I filter my input. Mercilessly.
I know a lot of creators of nerd culture. Game designers, writers, comic artists. Old, gnarled, crabby, battle-hardened pros with decades of experience. You'd have heard of a bunch of them. Even the toughest of mercenaries can be tilted by the entirely predictable response of a handful of crabby people.
All these creators have something in common. It never fails to amaze me, but a single mean email or bad review can send them into a spiral. Like, they'll still be obsessing over it days later. I think, "Wow. After all these years, they still won't let this stuff roll off of them?" And then it happens to me.
So we filter our inputs.
Consider this. Suppose you are, like all right-thinking people, a big fan of Taylor Swift. So you want to write her a piece of kind fan mail, telling her how awesome she is.
She might read it. It's entirely possible. However, before it hits her iPhone, I bet it will have been filtered by at least one handler. (All of this is just my guess, of course. I would NEVER presume to speak for T-Swizzle.)
There is a super-good reason for these handlers. I've never met Taylor Swift, and I likely never will, but I do know one thing about her: She is a human being, so she is heir to all human vulnerabilities. If hit with the wrong email at the wrong time, she will be thrown off her game for a day, or three. If Taylor Swift is thrown off her game, major corporations lose millions of dollars. So they filter.
I do the same thing. Your messages to me are checked before I get them. I almost never read forums. I'll bet most public figures with any kind of profile do the same thing.
Some people are mean. Some people are crazy. Some people are both. I do not let people in these categories pour poison directly into my ear.
3. I remember that life is not fair.
Suppose someone gets angry at me for what I write. He gets a bunch of friends together and they give my games bad reviews on Steam and iTunes.
This is really mean and genuinely harmful, and there is not a damn thing I can do about it. They will cost me earnings, and I have no recourse. They walked up, punched me in the nose, and strolled away, and I could do nothing.
Meanwhile, anonymous hordes gather and attempt to cause real suffering to their targets (and their targets’ loved ones). Targets often chosen for silly, trivial, or even factually incorrect reasons and given punishment utterly out of proportion with what they might possibly have done (or not). There is no logic to it, no justice. Just mad lashing out. I have tried to understand it, and I have failed. It is simply maddening.
Life is not fair.
If there was a solution, I would be suggesting it. If I had ever heard or read an answer which would really work and not be a bandaid and would actually make things better, I’d be shouting it at the top of my lungs. But I got nothing. What can’t be changed must be endured.
So, when I get scared or angry (which is often), all I am able to do is attempt a measure of Zen acceptance. I mean, sure, I could rail about how mean the Internet is. But the Internet is what makes my business and awesome life possible in the first place, so it seems a little churlish to hate the Internet.
I will never be totally safe. There will always be fights. Afterward, I get up, dust myself off, get back to work, and try to make enough money to endure the occasional asshole assault.
4. I am very careful about poking the beast.
The main way to draw abuse is by saying things that anger people. Saying true things still makes people angry. In fact, nothing makes a person angrier than telling them a true thing they don't want to hear.
That is why I don't write about politics.
When I chose to make a living as a creator, I picked a very difficult job. Very hard, long hours, with a minimal chance of success.
Suppose I also decide to try to change the world in some way. In this case, I picked another very difficult job. Very hard, long hours, with a minimal chance of success.
But there's a key difference between these two jobs. When I try to make stuff to make people happy, most people like me. Only mean, nasty people are out to genuinely hurt someone who only wants to share neat things with the world.
When I am trying to change the world, it's different. Human beings naturally hate and fear change. If you try to change the world, no matter how noble your cause, you will make some people angry.
Remember what I have egotistically termed Vogel's Iron Law of Anger: If you try to make people angry, intentionally or not, you will succeed.
Now what I am not (NOT NOT NOT) saying is that you should be quiet and never state your opinions. I am NOT saying that. In fact, as a citizen of a republic, I believe it is my sacred responsibility to occasionally speak up and try to nudge opinions.
However, a republic is not a suicide pact. What I AM saying is that I weigh my opinions very carefully. When I decide to speak up and try to change minds, I must ask: Am I currently ready to be shouted at? How much? Is the piece I am about to write a ticking time-bomb that will explode and destroy my career in five years? Then I pick fights that will not overly distract me from my first work: creating.
5. Beware Twitter.
Twitter in the worst medium for human communication in the history of human communication.
This doesn't mean it can't be valuable for a business. Just don’t forget a snake is always a snake.
Twitter was designed, from Day 1, to enable any random person to send messages directly to any public figure. In other words, from Day 1, it was designed to be an abuse and harassment engine. It's not a bug. It's a feature. All that abuse and controversy is how it gets clicks and money.
They are a publicly traded, for-profit corporation, so they will never change in a way that brings them less money. In fact, being a publicly traded corporation, they receive overwhelming pressure to not do so. They may seem to be on your side for a minute, now and then, but they are purely mercenary. They will sell you out in a second.
Do not trust corporations to make the world a better place. They are not your pal. They do not love you. Beware.
6. I have obtained a weapon for self-defense, and I have become proficient in its use.
Ha. Ha. I'm just kidding.
Or am I?
I'm certainly not going to tell you here.
Online harassment has been around for a long time. Every year, it increases in prevalence, ingenuity, and raw damage. I see no reason why this trend will change. I suspect, five years from now, things will be even worse. I don't know what will happen or how I will deal with it when it does.
I've been lucky. I've never gotten to the point where I seriously considered calling the cops. Not yet. Not because I didn't want to, but because I knew it wouldn't help.
Because who are we kidding? They won't do anything. The Law's ability to deal with crimes that haven't happened yet is pretty much zero. (As so many who have gotten restraining orders against an abuser can sadly testify.)
However, the police might make a note in some database saying that SWAT teams heading to my house should be a little extra-careful. That's more than zero.
Look, I've gotten legit scary messages. I've had nights where I sat up on the couch, scared to death, listening for someone trying to break in. I am familiar with gunpowder-based self-defense options.
(If you think I am being over the top here, please bear in mind that I am very intentionally leaving out the details of problems I have personally encountered, as I will NOT say anything publicly that might reawaken those problems.)
Writing about this topic, all I can do is shake my head slowly and take deep breaths and try to calm the anxiety. I tell myself that the person who actually comes to kill me probably won't bother to send a polite warning first. Weirdly, this doesn't make me feel better.
I don't know. I just do what I do and hope for the best. Does this count as advice?
If you're thinking of being a public figure, you need to be ready for it. I guess I do have advice. If you are nervous now, you have taken it: Be nervous. It's OK. It's the rational path.
And that's all I have to say about it. This is a very unsatisfying way to end the article, but the online environment now is very rough, angry, and in a state of flux. I think things will get worse before they get better. (I’m joking, of course. Nothing ever gets better.)
I respect the damage harassment can do. I don't blame the victim. I don't back down from every fight, but I am prepared for others to fight back. I am nice and respectful whenever possible. I remember some humans are mean, some are crazy, some are both, and there's nothing anyone can do about it. I also remember that the vast majority of people are quietly decent. Finally, I remember that being a public creator is a tough, noble path, and I am proud of it.
I hope you can pick something worthwhile from this heap of scraps. Good luck.
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Tough post to read. I have nothing to offer except that I really enjoyed both of the Queen's Wish games and I am playing through Geneforge 1 Mutagen and really enjoying it also. That encouragement is not enough I realize, but I hope it is something.
If it helps, and I sus it won't but I want to reassure you, I think you overestimate how much thought many haters put into their actions or how much they think about you personally. Even if they are organized enough, hate cults this organized are rarely about hating the person itself, but about what that person represents. At best, it's a suppression campaign barely disguised as free speech that you got swept up in. The sad fact is just because you don't get into politics doesn't mean you don't get swept up in it anyway.
<rant>When it comes to these things, I often think about those who still hate on Sean Murray. Not Hello Games, not games marketing spin itself, Sean Murray. It's been 5 years, people! He hasn't been run off with the money. You're not helping the games industry, you're not even helping yourself, by holding this grudge. Be honest with yourself, and disassociate with gamer hype or do more on social media than just dumping on people.</rant>